Showing posts with label Faith. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Faith. Show all posts

Sunday, September 2, 2012

Hello September!

Dear September,

I know that you are gonna be as unpredictable as August, but I believe that you are gonna be an awesome start of a new path I am willing to take to finally get out of my comfort zone and do things that I have never been able to do before.
 

This time I would like to write about being grateful as well as being disappointed. But let's get on with the good news first..
1) INDONESIA MENGAJAR, it's official now, I am now officially  'Calon Pengajar Muda V' (CPM V), I finally decided to take on the opportunity although it means that I have to postpone my adaptation program for at least another year and I have to be away again from my family and my mister.. It's H-7 to the 7-week of intensive training for the prep before deployment. So, basically I am going to be an elementary school teacher for the next year if I pass the training session, it's not going to be easy, but I am ready to give my best! I believe this is where God wants me right now, I have to take the longer pathway before going back to medicine.
Most of the times it's a struggle for me, I don't really understand why God wants me in this program.
2) Being a Front Officer at the former school where I used to work as an assistant teacher.
This one also had been a great opportunity for me to become better at communicating with other people and also learn more about problem-solving. Long story short, I nailed the job. :) Thanks God for giving me the opportunity to face my own fear. (in this case: answering phone calls, talking to strangers, etc..) I am now gaining a lil more confidence in this area.
3) Having to postpone my adaptation program is probably one of the hardest sacrifice I have to make for joining Indonesia Mengajar. I am not even sure now how am I going to get back on the med track. Seeing some of my friends already begin with their adaptation is even more suffocating! Because I know for sure that me also is qualified as they are.. Wanting something so much but having no idea how to get it even after you work super hard is the worst feeling ever (well, maybe second to being dumped by someone who you completely head-over-heels in love with yet the person is just not that into you).
4) Not being able to drive is very TROUBLESOME especially in Jakarta! Public transportation in Jakarta sucks. TITIK. Pardon me for being a bit emotional today. My dad had an acute appendicitis last Monday, he was in Bandung at that time so he had operation in one of the hospital in Bandung. Praise God everything went well.  But now he won't be able to drive for some times and my mister is also busy working and everybody else is also busy with their own life, all that's left is spoiled-me. -_- I have this fear when I have to ride public transportation just by myself. This is just too much.. H-7 to IM training and I still have so much stuff to pack, God help me!

Have faith Lilli, open your bible, fix your prayer life.. *trying so hard to convince myself*

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

Life goes on.. Part 2

Direct Assessment 21 Juni 2012

Wah, wah, sampai juga hari DA! Parahnya hari sebelumnya saya tidak tidur, mengapa begini mengapa begitu?
Jadi begini ceritanya beberapa hari sebelumnya I got my ear pierced (I actually had my ear pierced once before a longgg time ago, tapi berhubung salah satunya sakit waktu itu, saya lepas dan akhirnya lubangnya menutup), akhirnya setelah mengumpulkan keberanian lagi ditindiklah kuping kanan saya sekali lagi dan kali ini saya bertekad supaya jangan sampai menutup lagi lubangnya. Dengan ditindiknya kuping saya, ternyata pada orang dewasa lukanya butuh waktu lebih lama untuk sembuh apabila dibandingkan dengan anak-anak, alhasil badan saya agak sedikit demam dan ada sedikit pembengkakkan kelenjar getah bening di belakang kuping kanan saya. Karena hal inilah saya cukup kesulitan untuk tidur ditambah nyamuk-nyamuk nakal dan sedikit banyak rasa deg-deg-an menghadiri DA.
Saya berangkat pukul setengah 5 pagi bersama kedua orang tua saya, ikut gereja setengah 6 pagi di Gereja Blok B, kemudian mama turun di tempat senam dan papa saya mengantar saya ke kantor IM yang terletak di Jalan Galuh II no. IV,  setengah 7 pagi saya sampai dan mencoba untuk tidur sebentar.

Dalam direct assessment ada banyak tes yang harus peserta lalui, termasuk di dalamnya yaitu self presentation, psikotest, role play, simulasi mengajar, interview, dan focus group discussion.

Pendaftaran dimulai pukul 7, sudah ada beberapa peserta yang datang. Saya menyerahkan dokumen-dokumen yang dibutuhkan lalu mulai berkenalan dengan peserta-peserta lainnya.
Dimulai dengan penjelasan singkat mengenai program Indonesia Mengajar oleh Pa Susilo dari bagian rekrutmen tim IM. Beliau menjelaskan bahwa program IM mengirimkan pengajar muda (PM) sebanyak 2 kali dalam setahun, disebut dengan angkatan ganjil dan genap.
Angkatan kali ini ialah angkatan ke V, untuk angkatan ganjil daerahnya adalah: kab. Bengkalis (Riau), kab. Tulang Bawang Barat (Lampung), kab. Paser (Kalimantan Timur), kab. Majene (Sulawesi Barat), dan kab. Halmahera Selatan (Maluku Utara).
Setelah pengenalan singkat, kami dibagikan kertas kasus untuk group discussion, di sini kami diminta untuk menganalisa kasus secara pribadi terlebih dahulu. Kemudian kami dibagi menjadi beberapa kelompok. Kelompok saya waktu itu terdiri dari 6 orang. (ada Hesty, Ratih, Ane, Topan, Eko, dan saya sendiri) Mereka adalah sarjana-sarjana unggulan dari bermacam-macam universitas di Indonesia dengan prestasinya masing-masing, serta visi, misinya yang begitu mantap, saya sangat kagum dengan mereka.
Kelompok saya mulai dengan self introduction, masing-masing mendapatkan waktu 7 menit untuk memperkenalkan diri, sesi tanya-jawab singkat. Masih pagi, masih agak canggung, namun lama-kelamaan makin menyenangkan.
Tes kedua yang harus kami hadapi adalah role play, terdapat suatu kasus yang mesti dicoba diselesaikan bersama dan masing-masing dari kami diberikan peran dan dituntut untuk memerankan perannya dengan sebaik-baiknya. Saya sangat menyukai sesi ini.
Setelah role play ada waktu kosong sebentar sembari kami menunggu tes yang selanjutnya, dan pada saat itu tiba-tiba handphone saya bergetar, saya cek handphonenya di caller ID muncul nomor yang sepertinya saya kenal, dan benar saja itu adalah telepon dari MKKI (Majelis Kolegium Kedokteran Indonesia) hendak memberi tahu bahwa hari berikutnya which is 22 June, 6 o' clock they want me to come for the interview!!! SERIOUSLY?! Pas sekali waktunya yaaa, saya pusing, bagaimana iniii. DILEMAA. Yah tapii liburan tetap liburan, liburan yang sudah saya tunggu dari setahun yang lalu, akhirnya dengan sangat terpaksa saya memutuskan untuk re-schedule dan kembali menunggu untuk jadwal interview berikutnya yang entah kapan datangnya. Anyway, back to DA. (fyi, ini saya begitu dapat telepon langsung ngacirr masuk ke kamar mandi, telepon sebentar, pas keluar-keluar ehh pengujinya udah dateng, untung aja gpp, fiuhhh)
Hari mulai siang, perut mulai lapar, tes berikut untuk kelompok kami adalah psikotest! Aduhh saya sudah mulai pusing, mana sejak pagi tadi saya juga merasa tidak enak badan plus masuk angin, saya kerjakan sebisanya. Psikotestnya adalah PAPI test, simple, jawab sesuai hati nurani saja, hehe.. Setelah PAPI test, ada juga test gambar.
Sudahh, namun ternyata hari masih teramat panjang bagi kami. Hahaha.. Dan sebelum kamu bisa beristirahat untuk makan siang, jrenggg.. tiba untuk SIMULASI MENGAJAR, tes yang paling membuat saya tidak tenang. Hahaha.. Tiap peserta dapat giliran 7 menit untuk mengajar (materi dipersiapkan sendiri), sementara satu peserta mengajar, peserta-peserta lain berpura-pura menjadi murid, tambahan murid berasal dari PM sebelumnya dan juga tim IM yang hadir pada saat itu. Luar biasa menyenangkan sekaligus membuat jantung rasanya berdebar dengan sangat kencang. Seruuu sekali bagian ini! Kami para peserta bersusah payah untuk menghadapi anak-anak SD yang sungguh aneh bin ajaib pada sesi ini. Untunglah waktu terasa amat cepat berjalan dan sepanjang sesi ini gelak tawa tidak berhenti terdengar dari kami semua.
Istirahat makan siang, makan bersama, setelah makan ada beberapa peserta yang sholat terlebih dahulu sebelum melanjutkan ke sesi tes berikutnya.
Berikutnya adalah focus group discussion, saya pun sangat menyukai bagian ini, kami dipersilakan untuk berdiskusi antar anggota dalam kelompok untuk mencari solusi paling baik dari masalah yang diberikan. Kelompok saya adalah kelompok yang sangat menyenangkan di mana semua anggota kelompok memberikan waktu kepada masing-masing daripada anggotanya untuk mengungkapkan pendapat masing-masing, pada akhirnya inilah musyawarah untuk mufakat. Sukses untuk tim kami!
Tes terakhir ialah interview, satu-persatu dari kami masuk ke ruangan yang sudah ditentukan untuk kemudian di-interview oleh assessor dari P.T. Daya Dimensi Indonesia, satu jam kira-kira waktu yang dihabiskan, pertanyaan-pertanyaan yang diberikan cukup membutuhkan jawaban yang mendetail, tidak perlu tegang, anggaplah sesi ini sebagai sesi curhat, hehe..
Sekeluarnya saya dari ruangan interview, hanya satu saja yang saya rasakan: legaaaa, lega bahwa akhirnya saya bisa melewati hari tersebut. Sambil menunggu teman-teman yang belum selesai, kami yang sudah selesaipun bertukar cerita, bersenda gurau, sungguh terlihat kelelahan dari wajah setiap peserta namun terpancar pula kepuasan dan kesenangan. I really had so much fun that day, I am very grateful that I could meet so many amazing people and I really hope to see them again in the near future.
That's all for DA day. We were told to wait for at least until the end of July for the results, everybody will get the email (whether we pass or not), Pa Susilo is a person with a very good sense of humour.
So here comes the WAITING part, againnn..

Sekitar seminggu setelah DA berlalu, datang sms dari Topan (teman sekelompok sewaktu DA) menanyakan tentang apakah sudah ada yang dapat hasilnya ataukah masih waiting list. Saya segera cek email pada saat itu dan ternyata ada email yang menyatakan bahwa peserta diharap menunggu untuk hasilnya. Fuh, membuat saya deg2an sekali, bikin gregetannn, hehehe.. Topan memberitahu bahwa sudah ada 2 teman dari kelompok kami yang lolos, wahhhh, hebat!! Congrats to Ane and Ratih!
Saya tidak begitu banyak berharap untuk lolos tahap kedua ini karena obviously all the other applicants are superb! They have this amazing long background (either scholarships or experience in many organizations or other great achievements related to their hobbies, passion etc), it takes more than good grades to get into IM.
And believe it or not, yesterday I got a call from an old friend, she is a figure whom I really have respect to, her name is Ka Novi, she called and she said she was surprised that I applied for IM. Haha.. She said someone from IM called her to ask several questions about me, I felt so happy at that time. I said to her that I still don't know whether I am going to take this IF let's say I got accepted into IM, but I probably will take it since this is like once in a lifetime opportunity.
So, she told me to just wait for the news and wished me all the best. I told my mom about this, and surprisingly she is quite supportive about this.
So later that afternoon, I checked my email again, and there there: "Hasil Seleksi Tahap II". AAAAaaa, I started to panic, not sure of how I was supposed to feel. I opened it and started looking for the key word: "LOLOS", whattttt, I PASSED, I PASSED the second round of the test! I can't believe this!
Setelah mendapat berita ini, senang sekali, walaupun masih agak bingung, tapi bulat sudah saya akan ambil ini apabila Tuhan memang mengizinkan. After this comes the Medical Check Up (MCU), status for now: waiting. I am still waiting on the schedule. Pray for me, will you? :)) Thanks a bunch!

As for the med field, I believe that if it means for me there will be a way to go there, someday, when it's time, just not today. Have faith!

If they can do it, I can do it, and that means you can do it too! Nothing is impossible! 

Last but not least, to summarize everything: I can't believe it's JULY already!! The first 6 months of 2012 have passed! I can't believe I was still in China till last December doing medicine, I can't believe I had the chance to work in Bambino, I can't believe I got to go to Malaysia and celebrated my birthday with my loved one there, I can't believe I passed the second round of Indonesia Mengajar, I can't believe that I might be living somewhere really remote by the end of this year. I still can't believe all this, but this is it. This is God unveiling His plan for me, and ready or not, I HAVE TO BE READY because I am ready to work for Him, for the greater good, to actually do something for the society. I have never been more excited. Wish me luck, and please do pray for me. :)) Whatever lies ahead, bring it on!
Thank you God, your gift of life is amazing and I will try my best to live it joyfully so that in whatever I do it will be for the glory of Your name only.

and for verse of the week:
"Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you. (1 Thes 5:16-18)

Have a good day friends! :))

Friday, December 16, 2011

Bible verse of the week.

For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.
2 Timothy 1:7

For now, I really have no idea about what my future life will be, am I gonna be a doctor? (I certainly hope so, I pray to God to be with me every step of the way since it's gonna be a long wayy before I can finally get my license and practice) I doubt myself so much sometimes I think other people have more faith in me than me for myself, how ironic. -_- Am I strong enough to endure whatever comes next?

Sometimes we may feel insecure or afraid for reasons we can't share with others. We may feel so alone, so sad, and so down we don't even know how to live another day (kedengarannya emang lebay but it happens once or twice in life), we may have so much fears inside us or we may have so much doubts about ourselves or what future holds for us. Whatever it is that makes you feel this way, fear not, it WILL pass. Just know that you are NEVER alone. Hang in there! Pray, surrender yourself completely to God, and let God works. Know that God is always there, He has great plans for each of us, the obstacles we face in our life will only make us stronger and become a better person in the future, and all is for the glory of His name only.

Am I afraid right now? YES. Am I nervous right now? absolutely YES. But I have my faith in Him, I believe that God's plan is always good. Is my journey gonna be a smooth one or a bumpy one? I have no idea, hahaa, but I rather have a bumpy one with Him guiding me throughout my journey than a meaningless smooth one.

In the spirit of Christmas, let us pray for one another! :) Let us pray for Christmas full of blessings for everyone with no exception. Mari, mari berdoa dan berbagi berkat untuk satu sama lain.
I also would like to pray for one of my junior who had been hospitalized since last Sunday. May God's healing power come upon her so that she can be healthy again. God heals every illness she still has in her mind and body. Amin.