The Wheel of Life

Here come another storm in my life. I've been so anxious about waiting my HSK result to come out.
Turns out I haven't pass level 6 yet so that means I have to re-take the test which will cost me another 250 yuan. :(
So sad, unbelievably sad.. But, I need to look on the brighter side, I need to stay positive.
I'm planning to re-take the exam next month, June 20th, it's almost the end of semester, and I really need to prepare for my other exams as well.
Extra work! Less american tv series will help, I will start to watch Taiwan tv series instead to practice my listening.

So anyway, the old HSK (the one that I took 3 times already) has 4 parts, I screwed up the listening part of my last HSK. The scores for the other 3 parts actually is already inside the range of level 7. But due to my horrible listening ability, it got me into level 5 only. And even worse my uni will hold the old HSK exam no more. They got the new pattern which is utterly absurd, can't really explain it in detail. Singkat cerita it is much more expensive and much more complicated. It's always about the money here.. Money, money, and money. Argh.. ~_~ I have to go to Shanghai this Friday to register for the next HSK (they still have the old pattern  guess, gonna ask about it tomorrow by phone).

More current events in my life:
- I applied for a Chinese Govt Scholarship sometimes around last week, the school will choose the winner, and they will announce it at the end of this month. I really hope I can get it. *crossing my finger*
- I moved to the new dorm last weekend (4th floor which is almost the same as 5th floor), the shifting made my whole body ache, especially my feet. Still in the recovery phase now. :p

In need of a cup of comfort and big plate of encouragement. Jiayou Lilli!!

Hello, hello! It's time for a change.

Much things happened in this past few weeks. I given my HSK Exam last April 18th, the result will be out in about 2-3 weeks I guess, I just keep on praying that I'll pass level 6 this time so I will not need to give another try. I had enough with HSK, but still need to improve my Chinese! I haven't been so diligent about this one. My Chinese Proficiency Level is just like my life, there's time when it is really good, and there's also time when it is really really bad..
Other than HSK, my life has gone back to its usual routine, classes in the morning, nap time in the afternoon, then I have more classes, finally come back to my dorm and just spend most of my time in front of my laptop.
I need to remind myself again and again to focus on the goal! GRADUATE and become a GOOD DOCTOR, not just a doctor. And in order to do so, I need my Chinese both speaking and writing ability to be ready for next year's internship.
I still have no idea what I'm gonna do after, well, first on my list after I graduate is to continue my study, I just pray that God will make the way, I pray that everything will go on smoothly. It is true what lots of people said that being a doctor is a never ending study. Everyday there is always something new, something to learn. God help me, I want to study diligently because I don't want to have any regrets in the future. I want to do my best.
Anyway, in the midst of uncertainty and doubt, there's always something to be thankful for. I thank God for the weather, finally a nice and warm weather. :) I thank God because I'll be back to Jakarta soon! Haha. Not that soon actually, just for a bit of encouragement. :p I'll be going back to Jakarta on July 15th (papa's birthday), I'll be spending my summer holiday in Jakarta and mostly in Bandung I think, my sister is having her baby. :) See? I still have some things to be thankful for. Hehe..

This is one of the spring scenery that I really love. It's in my campus ground.

One more thing, I decided to leave my glasses in its box for a while, I am wearing contact instead. I am trying to get use to it now, I almost buy the one with colors, but finally I got myself 3 pairs of Acuvue Clear contact lens. I really want to try the green color though!! I tried brown ones, and it makes my eyes bigger, I love it, but I really want to try something new and I hope it will be a good change for me. I think I am in a state where I want a lot of things in my life to change, a good change of course.To be continued..

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Malam Minggu di Negeri Orang

Kalo biasanya ngabisin waktu di Jakarta sama teman-teman, sama keluarga. Bagaimana dengan di negeri orang? Jauh dari teman-teman, jauh dari keluarga.
I really don't have that much friends here, my besties are all kinda busy during the weekend, so here I am alone, writing, I usually spend my weekend in my room, watching movies or tv series, but today okay I had enough I guess, I really could use some fresh air outside my comfort zone inside my dorm room. I changed to something warm, put on my shoes and walked to the nearest bus station (which is 20 minutes walk from my dorm), ugh.. Naik busnya sendiri aja cuman 5 menit.. Kadang-kadang kangen Indo yang biasa naik bus di mana aja. Hahaha. :p

I went to In City Mall, satu-satunya mall yang kayak mall Indo, yang lain ampir semuanya kayak ITC, bersyukur banget begitu mall ini akhirnya buka di Suzhou. Why do I love this mall? Because it kinda feels like home, hehehe. Anyway, today I craved for a vanilla cream puff by beard papa.

Recommended "cemilan pagi/siang/malam" yang lumayan mahal. Hikss.. Karena mahal jadi ga bisa sering-sering beli.. It costs 7 yuan for vanilla cram puff (the cheapest one), hihi. I never try the green tea flavour, it costs 9 yuan, maybe I'll try it someday?

Yummy!

Hikss. I miss my mommy, my family, studying abroad makes me want to hug them more, whenever I get the chance. I miss my boyfie too. Huuu.